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had typed out two posts and ready to save when I lost connection... not sure when I will do it again as I need to calm down enough to re type again... agggggh computers!!!

Wooohooo!

I have been going at it slow and steady. Today I didn't want to weight myself knowing I was holding a lot of fluid this month but had to anyway... My first week and I have lost 1.9kg! Yay!
It just goes to show what a few small changes have done.
I just did half hour on the treadmill, nothing yesterday as I was a tad scared after the fall :)

Should have a good day today. I am catching up with a friend for lunch and shopping this afternoon. Glad that I did weigh myself as it has given me a little boost to do the right thing.

Must choose wisely at the food court today!

13.1 kg to go...

Chiro please! Monday Day 8

I finally did it... Today I put my daughter into bed for her afternoon nap and decided to get on the treadmill. I had no idea how long I wanted to do or how long I would last more to the point.

This is going to sound made up but know that sadly it is a true story. I can't believe it happened really, how funny. I was working up a sweat jogging away and thought I was doing pretty well so upped the speed a bit more. Huffing and puffing I was surprised how well I was running that I just took a quick look at my feet on the running belt when in 2.3 seconds I lost my balance and tumbled off the side. I tried to hang on quickly with my left arm while the rest of my body was stretched out to the bottom end of the treadmill where I just had to let go! I am laughing now at the thought and what a sight it must have been.

I managed to fix myself up, dust myself off and get back on the bloody thing. Oh yes, what an athlete I am .. NOT. That will teach me.
All in all it wasn't too bad, I managed to do 4.5 kms, broke a sweat, bruised my shoulder and my pride. *blushing*

Sunday Day 7

Average day today
No exercise.. still! :s

Need to stop from picking at left over food from the kids plates.

Avoid food courts until in the 'zone'. Still not able to totally resist the fatty temptations.

9.30pm
Movies: I took a small packet of popcorn with me and just drank water. Much better this time. I didn't need to really have anything as I had made a really nice chicken & mango dish for dinner.

Aaaah..cravings! Day 6

I had a good day today although I probably should have eaten a bit more. Because I over ate last night I found today I was a bit too careful.
I couldn't stop thinking about chocolate all afternoon. I haven't eaten it for a couple of months now I think.

Tried very hard to distract myself by doing other things. I have (not in any order):

• cleaned the house
• read some of my book
• walked the kids & dog to the park
• went for a drive
• sorted out some photos
• washed some clothes
• drank some water
• Searched the Internet
• Oh & went to a playcentre

On and off I would still find the thoughts of that wicked but ever so tasty, melt in your mouth chocolate, creep into my head. It's just crazy really however I have been feeling a bit down today so maybe my hormones are messing with me, who knows! Grrrrr what more do I need to do? Maybe I need to be hypnotized geeze.. drastic I know.

Bummer

Friday 15th Jan Day 5

I want to be able to say that all was good last night, I do. I started off so well but just fell for the snacks and kept telling myself each one was only 2 weight watcher points. By the end of the night I think they had all added up well beyond 20, where I stopped counting.
Not much to eat today.
Still no exercise.

11pm
Went to a movie & had a small popcorn to share - did well. For dinner we had tepanyaki (please feel free to correct my spelling on that one) no idea how its spelt but know that I ate way too much Again. Each dish comes out so small it is easy to think we are only eating light however they just kept bringing it out. I did have some vegies, does it matter that they were battered?!
How to the Japanese keep such small figures eating all of this.
Going to bed feeling fat and full. Hoping tomorrow is a better day, it has to be...

No Sweat

Well things are moving along okay. I am still yet to exercise unless cleaning two houses is counted? The treadmill is here but too heavy for me to move inside without more help (ugh curse these tuck shop arms)
I have decided I really need to get organised and start to plan meals better. The last minute what are we going to have for dinner plan is not working so good for health choices. So out come all the cook books, pen a paper and hopefully a weekly food plan. I really only concentrate on the dinners as that is my hardest time to be strong, I tend to eat way too big a serve and then go back later for something sweet. Staying up late at night has its draw backs too if I am not careful about what I choose.
The scales say I have lost half a kilo this week so far which is good. I am not getting to crazy about losing big numbers on the scales this time..a loss is a loss. It is all too easy for me to put on 5kg just looking at a pie with sauce!
Have been drinking more water the last few days and feel much better for it. Tonight I have a friend coming to stay and I really hope that I can do the right thing. We are going to gold class movies so the temptations are endless for me there.. popcorn, drinks, choc tops etc. She also loves to have a few champagnes so I am going to have to drink water in between. I tried to shop well, only getting half the snack foods that we normal eat and choosing low fat options where I could with fruit. My love is for the cheese and bikkies with a glass of wine. Okay fingers crossed